Thursday, July 31, 2008

On Laughter

"Laughter is not a definitive measure of happiness. Sometimes it is used as an effective defense mechanism."


I'd rather...

I'd rather not speak when everything you say is not right
I'd rather not do anything when things are not appreciated
I'd rather not expose myself than to be ridiculed
I'd rather sulk and sleep than open my eyes to reality and hurt
I'd rather not disclose when everything's shattered and undone
I'd rather pretend to be another that to show how ugly it is to be me
I'd rather cry throughout my life when tears are the only source of my freedom
I'd rather keep silent and carry my burden than to give others the problem
I'd rather not be contented in order not to stop dreaming
I'd rather not be happy when I know it is a lie
I'd rather be deaf than to hear their words that stab my soul as if I'm in hell
I'd rather not see if it's only contempt that feeds my eyes
I'd rather not feel when it's the reason why I'm experiencing pain
I'd rather not use my brain to think when what it transmits are negative impulses
I'd rather be numb and paralyze my senses until I cease to be human and escape my earthly life of felony

Welcome to My Life!

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Emo Shoe

e.m.o.

Monday, July 28, 2008

hi

hi hi hi!my 2nd blog.heheh! good luck to me.mwah mwah!